I experienced this in a dramatic way when I came home in the arms of Love after years of spiritual rebellion. I was furious at the church for its hypocrisy, and I resented a world that seemed so cruel and merciless. For years I plunged into darkness and nearly became a satanist because anger consumed me. There was no hope, no joy, no future in this evil world where nobody seemed to care about anything but themselves. So I dove headfirst into the depths of darkness.
But before I was lost forever, the Giver of all life revealed himself to me.
This is what happened... I watched the ceiling of my room disappear, and I literally beheld eternity. An endless dimension of untold beauty, indescribable majesty, unfathomable glory. I have no words to describe it, other than it stretched without beginning or end and radiated unspeakable beauty, overwhelming majesty, and raw power. Out of this dimension came two enormous hands that picked me up, like a daddy lifts his little baby.
After years of running away, kicking against everything, cursing God, and trying to kill myself, I found myself embraced by the One I had been fleeing. I was held in a love so intense that I cried uncontrollably for hours. I became a different person entirely.
Did I turn to some religion? No. Was I embraced by an institution? No. Was I convinced to accept a certain faith? No. I was picked up by the One who knows me, understands me, feels me, and who loves me with a deep, warm, never-failing love that healed my soul.
When I returned to my friends a few months later, they said: “David, you’ve changed from a devil into an angel!”
